Friday, August 27, 2010

Random Thoughts While Working The Desk

I am once again surprised to find out that people not only read my blog, but enjoy it and they are able to connect with it.  It really makes me feel bad when my grammar is wrong, or I make absolutely no sense as I go off into random tangents.  It also amazes me just the variety of people that read my blog.  I’ve had anywhere from my extended family reading it to people I just met, to people I don’t even know, but end up adding me on facebook for one reason or another, usually because of my faith. 

 That’s another thing that has me staring at my life like a deer in headlights: the ways God brings various people into my life!  The vast majority of it has been through facebook and the statuses I post.  A lot of my facebook stories have to do with expressing my faith or my awe at how AMAZING God is and people see that!  For example, I just recently had someone add me because he saw that I was friends with the Woodbury Marine Corp Recruitment Station and some other people who are joining the Marines.  He also saw that I was strong in my faith, so he added me as he is strong in his faith and joining the Marines.  He read my blog, especially the one about being a military girlfriend/etc.  He said it really helped him see things from that end of things and he was grateful because he has a lady currently and is leaving for the Marines as soon as he gets his post-grad.  I’m really glad my writing could help someone.  That’s all I ever want to do is to connect with people; whether that be through writing, photography, talking, music, or any other way out there.  I live for that moment when someone smiles at me because of something I’ve done.  I live and breathe to make people smile.

  It’s been brought up, on a few different occasions that I should go into ministry with my knack for having people randomly add me or talk to me just because they want to talk to me about faith, but I think that would almost ruin it.  I think one of the reasons why I am so approachable about faith is because I am just a regular person and I don’t hold some sort of figure-head in any church.  Some people are afraid to talk to those in ministers because they are afraid of being judged.  It is another reason, also, why I feel I am called to be a teacher or do overseas missionary work just building and living amongst the people, not necessarily preaching to them.  As a teacher students could come up to me.  Yes, I know in some public schools this is not allowed, but it is something I definitely want to look into and see where the rules bend at that.  I’ve also explored the idea of being a photographer for either TIME magazine or taking pictures of our troops overseas… I would LOVE to share my faith with troops overseas.  I think a lot of them lose their faith because they see so much hurt in the world and that just kills me inside.  They need faith more than anyone else, I think, BECAUSE they see so much hurt in the world.  In a world of hurt, it helps me so much to know that I have a light that is my amazing Lord and Savior.  It is a burden lifted to know that my Lord has a plan for everyone in all of the darkness, even if it is not the plan we have.  It’s like Shane Claibourne says, “The second I accepted Christ into my life, my life became chaos.”  The ways of the world are not the ways of the Lord and we need to learn to live for Him and not for this world.  Marissa put it really well during her speech at IV tonight, “we are not students on this campus above everything else, (as most organizations will tell you when they talk about how you need to focus on school instead of the organization) we are on this campus because God called us to this campus.”  That just struck me completely because it is SO true.  We get so caught up in our school work and the stress of trying to achieve that goal in the future that we miss the little things God calls us to RIGHT NOW.  And it is, with that thought, that I leave you my friends.  Do not close out the small things God calls you too, for it is sometimes, in those smallest moments, that the seed of faith is able to grow.